sorry

I've dreamed a thousand ways to get through this love

Thought it's gonna be such an happy ending as how I want it to be

I don't wanna end this thing, but..

It's such a battle I should fight everyday

Distance, time, we lost in translation

Or I just lose my way to the top,

And never ever be able to see the top

You told me just to hold on

I'm trying my best to hold on

But I'm the hardest one, and you can't believe it

I love you with all my heart,

But I'm getting tired for not having you on my side

What if I need you?

What if I tell you that I can't live without you?

Would you trust them? Would you let me go?

I wanna let go, but I can't just let go

Body and soul, from head to toe,

I still wanna please you, and never to release you

I took some time to recall back all of the sweetest thing you said to me

Too bad I trust them, all of them

Money and gold, houses and cars, I don't want them all

I just wanna ease everything, work everything for us

Even though I have to be like this, 

and I know, you hate me if I'm like this

Trying to keep my distance more and more and more everyday

Just to keep me safe

I don't know if I'm deserved to be loved

But I want to be loved

I don't wanna be like this, but I'm the one who makes everything harder

Wish I could scream or just drown 

And forget about the pain

I can't always be like this, I know

But I'm sorry I have to be this way,

I just want to keep me safe...

Avoid the heartache

FFF

(April, 21 2019)