ironic.

If only I could turn back time, I'd do it

If only I could back just to change everything, I'd do it

I know, I've been too suck for a lover, yeah I know it

Even some days I might wanting the things I can't have,

But deep inside, I know I can have it.

It's been such a long way for me to settle down.

Acting so good, by the time I was too good (maybe)

I'm destructed, filled with poisonous thoughts (could be)

But I know what I want, I know what I need

That's the part when I left you with a goodbye, 

without even staring each other,

and to me, that's ironic.

Maybe I'm the foolest, I didn't know what I was doing.

But we fell in love, I can still feel it.

That night when we were staring each other so close,

That night when you lingered you arms around me so tight,

I can still feel it, and wonder 'till when I'd forget it.

We were so close that the clock even ticked slowly,

But we ended too fast, 

and to me, that's ironic.

"What in the world I wouldn't give?" asked myself.

Crying, crawling, and being haunted by the shadow of you.

But I'm a good girl, I'm stronger than before.

When I get back to stand, that's the part when I go back falling down.

Isn't it funny? 

or, isn't it an irony?

Oh to me, that's ironic.

We made to love, and burn to hate.

I knew you by heart, 

While you didn't even trying to know mine.

Then, what was the night we spent together?

What was about the "I love you" you always tell me in every single night?

What about the planned we've been craving so high?

Is it me who's wrong enough?

Or is it me who's acting too good for you but still never enough?

I'm stuck, I can't move, I can't breathe.

I've loved you since the first time we met, 

and, now I'm craving myself just to hear the same old thing,

but never been, 

and to me, that's ironic.

FFF

(Sept, 17 2017)