Wish I may die for a second
To see how's everyone will be doing without me
Are they gonna be okay?
Or, are they gonna be lost without me?
Every night, every day, I've been asking God for the same thing
I wish I'm dead, and now I'm living deadly in the desert
Need it to be rained, and I'll keep on flourishing
Love,
They tell you love's gonna heal
They tell you love's gonna make you feel alive
I wish I could be, and now I'm lingered by that
But who knows about what I feel inside?
I'm just sick and tired to live the way everyone wants me to live
I'm just a girl, trying to make it alright
With the softest touch, I may make it alive
But no, since I know I lost mine trying to follow what's around
I'm just a damn sick girl, living in her dark fantasies
Somedays I feel okay, yet some days I feel not okay
And they tell me, "It's okay not to be okay"
I don't wanna listen to what they say
I do always want to make the best of it,
I'm trying to...
But no with the force line
I don't wanna be the other me, I want to be the real me
But, will they even like me if I stay true to myself?
These days seem darker than I thought it's supposed to be
And I'm not ready for that
If I only have one wish,
I wish I to be dead in no time
I want some peace,
I don't want any more patience,
I just wanna lay down and close my eyes,
Being unable to wake up for some more days
I'm just a failure, I'm just a burden thoughts
I'm a mess, and I don't deserve to be loved.
Thoughts of having suicidal thoughts.
FFF
(Nov, 20 2018)
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