what do I know?

I can't help myself from drowning to my own thoughts
Cigarettes, smoke, drink, pour it down
Isn't it crazy to think that we met in such unthinkable time?
and ended fast like we got no time?

Maybe I just can't deal the fact that I still love you.
Nothing's clear, nothing's ever gonna be clear.
I'm trying to smile behind this all,
But oh ain't I get tired too from doing it all?

Maybe I just can't deal the fact that we're back to strangers again.
But is it that easy for you?
And if I tell you I have thousands way to let you go,
Would you even stop and beg me to stay?
Without wanting me to let you go?
But I bet you just want to let go.
And what do I know?
What do I know?

I'm sick and tired of living a lie.
Tell myself I'm gonna be okay, some time.
But I know, it's a lie that keeps haunting me.
I keep calling your name, day or night,
But nothing's gonna change, but takes everything to change.
But who am I to say so?
Who am I to your dream?

I keep pushing backwards, and there's no way to turn.
All this love burns to hate.
For you, who once a dream in my most nights,
For you, who's just a bad dream happens in my most night.
I can't say a thing no more.
All my drinks are up some more.
While my dreams are faded,
just like the weather, swirling 'round your empty life.

FFF
Sept, 23 2017