sequence of events

I think about that January, 2023

When we first intensely talked
You got me smiling every night,
Or everytime you said "You're mine"
That month was full of our dreams and fantasies, I know
Even sometimes I wish we could do it again
But no, I have to wakeup from this bad dream I'm having

It's been so long without you here
I feel so down and lonely in this street
Told you, I was all for you and none for him,
But you didn't believe it, you pushed me away
Until I realized you're just being someone else, no longer the one that I used to know well

I don't wanna think about that April, 2023
I still could remember the date but no, I won't tell
That day when everything seemed right, went terribly wrong
You said I couldn't do anything else to fix what's been broken
But I didn't give up, I ran after you
Until I realized that you're giving up and I was left alone, crying, thinking about those dreams we've been planned
Did you ever love me truly or I was just too blind to see or to believe

Then, a month later I said "hi" again,
Telling you how much I missed you
For a minute, I wished you'd say the same
But no, it was clear that you wanted me to hate you, the way you did to me
Oh honey dear, I never did, or wanted to

And I guess I'm fine now
I've already made up my mind
It's okay, people come and go and that's life
You're once someone I knew so well,
Who knew all my secrets, dreams and fears
And I knew all yours too
For some days I feel grateful that you were there for me
And I was there for you, and I shouldn't worry about it anymore
You got your ways, I got mine
Even it's sick as hell, but hi, I'm stronger that I thought I'd be

So goodbye to you. 
Goodbye to all those memories and dreams
I hope you're good somewhere, anywhere
And I hope someone will love you better than I did... :)

FFF

Oct, 17th 2023