ridin' and drivin'

This life is a wild ride

Imagine how I used to sleepin' on my mama's arm

Now I'm someone new, with newer vision, newer version

No bads or goods when it comes to me

I swallow what I want to, I breathe money as I wish I could do

I dreamed of having cats and big houses

Swimming pool on the roof, so I could swim as I want to

Or living by the ocean and see the clear water 

And bathing in glitters and golds that turn myself into a God

But those are just a dream and I keep ridin' and drivin'

Pajamas all day, all night, I have no other clothes

Lingerin' in bed, eating all the cereals cause I don't have anything

Drinks that I get for free,

cause I use my body to get it all

It's a sad, sad real life

But I just keep on ridin' and drivin' 'till I'm dyin'

I used to have that kind of life

They call it as once in a life time

Now I've bought my card, built them and it fell apart

Now I'm falling apart, couldn't wake up

Wish I could wipe all my sadness but what a shame it's immortal

I wanna show the world I'm fine, 

I just couldn't.

Cause everytime I fall, I get up, I fall again, it feels like forever

And nothing can change them all

All of my dreams were just a dream and I keep ridin' and drivin'

Kinda think I'm being heartless, I just have no other clues for life

Lingerin' in bed, eating all the cereals cause I don't have anything

All those clothes and bags that I get for free,

as how I used to use my body to get it all

It's a sad, tragic real life

But I just keep on ridin' and drivin' 'till I'm dyin'

No other things to try...

No other tears left to cry...

I don't need any love, I don't belive it at all

I just need some time to sleep, don't need a wake-up call. 

FFF

(Dec, 26 2019)