selfishness.

I've been trying to be the best I can, but nothing's never good enough.

Then now I stop, I'm trying to open my eyes again.

From the same 'ol mistakes, same 'ol lame shit.

I feel free now. Even though I don't know,

Is this the right way for me to choose?

Cause I'm feeling half empty inside.

All the posts, pictures, everything,

I'm truly touched by looking at it.

This might be wrong, I might be misdirected.

Loosing myself when they like me.

and frowning, when I do find me.

Is it this wrong?

Is it this hard?

All the things I've been shreddin for,

It's all lost like dust in a desert.

Set me free, I really wanna be free

No cries, no worries, just nothing at all

To me you are like a sister, 

pinky-promises, day and night telling stories, 

We were so close back then, 

Before you touch the fire, burn the whole of my soul

And I was a fool to be so selfish, 

   but I need to be selfish!

I won't beg for the last time

Cause we both now where this would go.

I lose myself when you're not here, 

   and you should've known.

I'm just so screw up, I feel so stupid.

I wanna beg, but I hate begging.

I wanna be like what we used to be, 

   but I think it's all too late.

Now where are you when I need you?

Just one forgiveness wouldn't hurt a thing

I'm tired for being so selfish, and I wanna stop.

Please, read this stupid sayings to all the things I intended to say to you

   but I can't, cause I'm a coward.

Please, look at my act, and help me to stop the madness I've been doing.

I don't wanna start to a new one, or go to another one.

To me you're the one and only,

   that ever been so close to me.

My heart is faded, my tears are streaming down my face.

I don't wanna give up to you, 

I don't wanna give up on us,

   but....,

If you're the ONLY one who wants to stop, and burn the bridges

I perhaps should understand why, and never wanting to ask WHY.

F F F

(Dec, 14th 2016)