notice me

I still remember the first time we met,
Too young to speak of forever,
Yet somehow we painted futures in the air,
Like we were written in the stars—
When maybe we never were.

Don't you know
I've always wanted you
To be my last?

I can't explain it,
And I can't say goodbye.

The truth is,
I'm still in love with you,
And that's a feeling I can't outrun.
I've spent years running from your memory,
Trying to leave your shadow behind,
Yet here I am—
Still wishing you were mine.

Even now,
When we're both holding someone else's hand.

Notice me,
See through every wall I've built.
Take my hand
And make me believe again.

There's thunder in my past,
And summer living in your eyes.
I keep wishing
We could breathe life into that dream,
That impossible dream.

And if we could,
I think I'd finally know peace.

I thought letting go would be easy,
But that's the lie I tell myself
When the nights grow quiet.

Most days I lose myself
In thoughts of you—
Imagining your face beside mine,
Imagining us tangled beneath the sheets,
Far from every obligation,
Far from every name we've learned to answer.

Could we disappear for a while?
Somewhere beyond the cities,
Beyond the noise,
Where time forgets to chase us.

We could make a memory worth keeping,
Unlike the one we left behind
That cold December.

So notice me,
See me for who I've always been.

Believe me—
You were never a maybe.
You were always my forever.

My day one,
Or
My "one day."

I still don't know
How to be whole without you.

So hold me close,
And I'll stay beside you
For as long as this heart remembers.

And if fate won't allow us
In this lifetime,

Then perhaps
In another.

FFF
May, 27th 20226