The love, the passion, the desire felt so real
I can't get you out of my head, no matter how hard I'm trying
Some days I feel sad, some days I feel fine
Some days I feel like I'm missing you, but some days I'm just...
hanging for life and drifting away...
Don't know why I feel so empty,
I'm just like a broken dandelion with a lost vision
I'm losing every bit of myself trying to understand
what's this all about.
I saw you in my dream last night
You kept looking at me but the silence was all I heard
I knew you're looking at me, I hesitantly came to you
Maybe a bit strong but wasn't sure for what I was doing
Until you pulled me closer, hugged me so close
And you said, "I'm sorry for everything"
And I looked at you, crying, saying "I'm sorry too"
How it's so funny when I thought I was okay,
But again, you came in my dream
Maybe it's all just some wishes I wish we could do
But is it still possible for us to...?
That's impossible, right?
You hated me this much and you know,
that hurts so fucking good.
And that's because I never hated you, or wanted to...
I don't know why I try to be okay, when I'm not
So much memories, so much things I couldn't let go
Your text, your words, that's all I could remember
I'd spend my days feeling blue, and so lost
Wishing you to get back and start all over
Even though it's impossible, I know
Feeling like I'm searching for something that isn't real
Feeling like I'm falling in love alone for thinking about you, our past
Don't you feel the same too?
Oh no, you won't feel the same, you already hated me
And if it must, this whole world needs to know
that you're completely gone and finished for whatever we had
But don't you know one thing?
I'm sick and tired of running away, feeling scared and confused
Asking all these question inside my head
Answering all these confusion in hesitant
Ever since the day you left,
Since you left.
FFF
Oct, 4th 2023
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