that life.

I guess I could make the money fly,

I wish I could make the money fly.

I'm addicted to the beautiful life

A life that all these debutantes have

A life which isn't real, blurry in lines,

Never was a good one.

I guess I could have that life,

I wish I could have that life.

Bathing in roses, sleeping in victoria's brand.

Cause all these things are just too glamorous

And I don't want to quit that

No, I don't wish to quit that

But here I am, lying in bed

Thoughts are full of mistakes and sin

To my God, I'm a sinner,

To my parents, I'm a failure,

Never was the best one,

I thought they'd throw me out someday,

but they didn't

and that's bad.

I guess I could end life,

I wish I could end life.

Like a prisoner, I can't get out.

Like a poison, I'm too dangerous to touch

Ain't no one could change me,

Ain't no one could change the blue in me.

FFF.

(September 23 2019)

metanoia