drugs, drinks, and boys, and love.

I'm close to torn apart

Tonight, tomorrow, maybe forever

This night seems so scary to me

So windy that brings my memories back

and I'm not ready for it

But you have to know one thing

that I may have failed,

but I've loved you from the start.

I know this's a war for me,

I just can't pretend anymore.

I'm out of the touch, hard to expose

The light inside of me has been broken

Told you I was the best

Told you I was the finest

You didn't trust it, and I got nothing to hold

Even though I put my best to let go

But I never let go of anything, everything

Here I am standing so strong at the edge

Seeing all the things so blurry, I might jump and finally get free

I've taken all the drugs, and drinks, and boys, and love

But nothing would ever compare to you

You're the first I knew,

You're the last thing I'm thinking about,

You've lost me, and I lost you

And we got nothing to do.

Sometimes I feel like it's enough, enough

I never really know what to do when it comes to love,

'Cause it's confusing, frustrating, all is fading

I'm out of the touch, hard to expose

The light inside of me has been broken

Told you I was the best, 

Told you I was the finest,

But we got nothing to do, except the memories which are left behind

FFF

(July 15, 2018)