loving you from afar

Now I heard you’ve lived somewhere,

A place that I’ve never known

Cold water and some dark nights, that’s all I could remember 

You’re gonna need some fresh air and wind to help you recover 

From what have been lost, at least after this whole year and months

And I’m still here, stuck in the moment

Missing you once or twice, guess that never matters to you, I know

I’ve lost someone I love the most 

And probably this worth all the pain I’m having

But to have a thought of having you around,

Like what we used to,

Haunts me for life and leave me hopeless 

I’m so drown in you

I got so attached to you

I begged you once to not make me blue

But that’s all you do, huh? 

A little “hi” won’t hurt, but still, I’m waiting for you

It’s like I’m walking on a broken path, still searching for you 

But you're just nowhere to be found 

I won’t put my hands so dirty just to find out

How life have been treating you 

Is it good, is it bad, tell me more about it

I don’t care you’ve got a girl to kiss or touch

Cz we got unfinished business, and that’s all matters now 

So why don’t you come back and I’ll be raising my white flag

Wrapped around my body, will you take it off the way you used to do

I’ll do good as how you always want me to be

I can’t cross this wide ocean,

Or climb all these mountains

But I'm breaking my walls, my dear

Just a little hope won't hurt so much 

Even though it's been only myself loving you from afar

Maybe you know, maybe you don't

Maybe you feel, maybe you just lose your senses 

   for having the thoughts of me, or us 

I know we're a long gone but the history's on repeat 

Can't get enough with life, I'm so delusional 

Want you to be here, but I think that's just a false hope

When I get older and maybe you've found somebody to hold onto

Will you still have me in your memories?

Will you find my presence in her eyes?

Cz now I'm older and I'm still haunted by the thought of it

I wish I could be better, but it gets further, deeper and darker 

I could only wish you all the very best,

   even though I can't have you by my side... 

FFF

Sept, 2nd 2024