careless & a dead end

Careless
I know you're being so careless
Leave me breathless and hopeless
This is the thing you're so good at
A twisted game I'm getting tired of

While me, hoping
At some other sides, you know I'm hoping
That we can be fine at no time
But right away, right now

No need more explanation but just... 

"please forgive me" for million times

I might be dead a billion times
When you told me that it's over

But when you hold me, it's now or never

I didn't give up, I still tried
I know what's done is done,
What was in the past, now is gone
But still, I keep trying to...
   keep you close
Even it's now a dead end

So cold
You're so cold cz you missed the hot touch
I can give you some, but you still stand on your ground
I put the act for nothing, wearing this dress for nothing cs I know it all returns to nothing
So now the clock is ticking
Leaving me so empty
All my emotions has gone, 
All those love now is gone 

So why it has to be this way
Being careless all you want 
Cause maybe you're just so good on your own 
You picked me then threw me out 
Without any time to decide 
And in the end I know, it's a dead end 
Nowhere to be found, 
But still with ya on my mind 
It's a lovesick, toxic, and so dramatic

But I'll be fine when I'm fine
I'll be clean when I'm clean
Will let go of those thoughts
Cz you know, I'm just wasting my time
It's all meaningless, hopefully leaving you so breathless
And I'll be careless when it's right, it's damn right
Just make sure you'll be prepared
For the things that's about to come

FFF
31 of December 2023