That people would call it as a tragic
When I was at my worst, loneliness was all I had
Then you came along and said to me, you've been dreaming about me
And you wanted me, craved for me
As how I was thinking to escape from the reality I was in
It was so sweet, sweet as cyanide
Now you see, how it's slowly killing me to know you're not here
I'm so shameless, I know
It was all so shameless, I know
But you can't runaway from what you had
I hope those memories will haunt you and stay in you forever
Where you can't find someone's better
Better than the one that you let go
Better than the one that couldn’t loosen up your ego
You'd been unavailable, keeping distances just to numb the pain
While I, couldn't shut my mouth and seemed to always complaining
I wanted this, you wanted that
You gave me hope and also scars
And to wished in every stars
Until I felt sick and tired of your habits
To put me all together then pushed me away
For some times I realized you're not good for me
But soon I realized what I lost
Losing you was something I never wish to happen
Loving you was something real, something magical
Even though it’s all illogical and irrational
So what happens now?
Where are you?
Where the fuck are you and all our dreams?
Are you feeling shameless like I do too?
No matter how much stories I have in mind,
Every poetry that I wrote,
No matter how lost we are,
I'm still keeping some places, just a little bit place for you
Just in case you'd come back and say hallo again
I've been feeling gone too far, I need my way to back home
Don’t you know I feel tired of living this life too?
I don't want nobody else but you
I know I'm so shameless for having this duality love life imagination
But I'll always be here if you're tired searching for a new home
We're both complicated, yet so passionate
I’m sorry if I’m too naive to say that I hate you,
I’m just hoping you’d feel the same too
FFF
August, 3rd 2023
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