now I know

I thought I'm settled by now

I thought my heart's home somehow 

That's why I tried to come back

I'm glad that everything's going well with you

That kinda gives me a little cold closure 

The fact that you're just fine without me

Now I know where should I stand

Back to the ground is all I need 

I just realized that the brigde has burned down

No pieces left to be found 

And how naive I've been yearning for that thing we call love 

It's a bullshit and I should've known 

I've lost my way but I have to stand strong 

Now I know, you won't need me anymore 

Now I know, you're just there finding your own home 

I used to own you, I used to praise you, always

It's a goodbye even though I don't want to

You make it easier, it was harder before 

Now I know it's time to let go

Now I know it's time to forget about those underego

Now that I know, I shouldn't feel bitter anymore

Why it feels so strange? 

Why it bothers me still? 

It's not about the time

It's not about those unrealistic dreams we've ever created 

Or maybe, it's about me, after all 

Can't see you happy with someone else 

Even though I hope you're happy at some other side

I'm shameless and selfish and this is me with the newer version you might hate

Heartbreak tells me to be better, so don't blame me for that 

Why do I still feel the hurt after all this damn time? 

Why do I still feel the longing, even after you broke me down? 

Shouldn't I just move on and continue my life? 

Keep telling myself that I'll get better in time

But that's a lie, cz I never wanna let you go

So please, don't let go

So please, hold me back 

Look at me with all your heart, feel me in most of your days and nights

Have you found someone new, yeah, don't wanna know about that 

I wanna win you, kin you to my very last breath

Where we could kiss all day and do the things we wanna do

I've known you longer and you knew me better 

So why would you leave me so bitter? 

Can we make it all work for longer? 

Scars on my heart, body and soul, yeah, they don't matter

I just wanna hold you forever

Just one last time I wanna say something

Before I go away and may leave you somewhere 

Can we be like what we used to be? 

Can we talk, argue, or love like we used to be? 

I want us the way we used to be

So please, stay with me 

And by that, come back to me...

FFF

March, 23rd 2024