a devil's work

Last night before midnight

I said something about you again, just before I went to sleep 

I prayed to God to keep you safe, bless you all the way 

Then, I just realized that... 

I've been doing this almost everyday, when it's raining or sunny day 

Getting you off of my thoughts is the only thing I need

Just to keep me safe for the day

All those convos, I deleted them all

Won't go back to think about you, if I must say

There are thousands of memories inside my head that burns to my chest 

I can't wait to be in that day where my heart's home, and you're just a long gone 

But I guess I was wrong 

Coming back to you is the only thing that matters 

Even though you may not care at all 

The dream about you was something

Felt like I could touch you so near 

You whispered to me that you loved me 

Holding hands and kissing behind the curtains

I didn't wanna wakeup from that dream

I felt way too comfortable in my own dreams 

Cz that's the only way I could see you and touch you 

Without having to worry about the situation I'm in

Baby, I was stupid for saying that early vow

I only want you to be my one and only now

Did you dream about me too, or did you miss me the way I do to you

Or it was just a devil's work to make me always choose you?

They say, missing a person we can't have hurts the most 

But I'm living it now, don't know where to stop

I wish I could be better than yesterday 

But yesterday's over and now is a different day

I may lose my thoughts about you once or twice

But keep coming back to "what if we do what those lovers do?"

I have to live with this pain for now or forever

Cz having you by my side is the only thing that I'm yearnin' for

.

But I saw you again last night in my dream 

So hard to move on when you're holding too tight 

   to those broken promises, eight words unsaid

You were touching me and told me to always wait and never let go 

And we did what those lovers do 

And when I woke up, I started to cry again

Thinking that we must have those good days I gotta forget 

Was it all about you missing me too, 

Cz I've been missing you forever 

Or, was it all just a devil's work to make me always stay

If only you know how much that meant for me

You wouldn't leave me but to hold on on me, the way your heart and mine wanted to.... 

I've missed you my whole life, 

And my tears are getting dry to realize that you've gone, 

As my love should be too... 

FFF 

April, 3rd 2024