the moment I knew.

A sudden text 

A sudden call

A lovely things you could do

When we were all together

Just before we lost it all

I caught your attention and you liked it

You gave me hope, and I was falling for it

That’s the moment I knew, 

We’re gonna be a lover

Not in this life, maybe in another

You calmed me down

You made me high

Higher than the empire state, that’s all I knew

You made me happy

Then you made me think like I didn’t deserve it

It’s always been confusions with out any visible visions

Where actions were nothing but only a delusion

I ain’t gonna fight it no more,

I ain’t gonna stand my feet to the same place, no more

You could go away, find someone you love, 

(As if you ever love something)

I ain’t tryna be that girl again

Because I was there once, and I lost it somehow

Don’t you ask if I’m gonna be okay,

Cs you know, I won’t be okay until you said something

That’s the moment I knew, 

I need to let go

I won’t put the blame on you or me

I’m sick of being blamed the whole time

Told me that I shouldn’t have to make you feel happy and secured

Because you didn’t like it

(You didn’t like it coming from me)

I was too blind to see, or maybe just being too obsessed for what we had

Now that it’s all gone,

I hope you’re happy wherever you are

I ain’t gonna fight it no more

I ain’t tryna be that girl no more

I was there once and maybe it was beautiful 

Until you cursed me, hated me, and dismissed me

Like I haven’t done anything good for you

So babe, go ahead find your peace

Even if it means falling in love with yourself only

FFF

August, 4th 2023