a slow learner

I feel like I'm dressing in regrets

The last dress you bought that you'd never see

All the gifts were wrapped in black and blue

The colors that you've ever shown me 

But now I try to burn it

Even though you don't get to see it

Yes, I'm about to do it

I think about that last January, 2023

Where everything seemed so simple

Cz I got you in my hands

But now it's September, 2024

Just three more days till your birthday 

I still see nothing's coming

As I might guess you're somewhere 

   with somebody new, somebody's better than me

I really do hope she could make you happier and better

   better than I did...

Did you ever listen to me or 

Did you see right through me?

Did you ever believe in me or 

Have you outgrown me?

But guess that I’m a slow learner, 

I’m a late bloomer

That only shows cz I still have you on my mind 

Even when everything’ s clear and been packed up 

I lost you and you lost me

And we’re just so good at keeping tabs, keeping distance

Cz maybe you know better 

Even though it feels bitter 

So how’s the night when you feel hot and alone?

Used to run to myself but look at you now 

I wish I could be a fast learner to know how this ends 

But you got me feeling loved and I liked it 

Maybe we’re meant to be, maybe we’re not

But running back to each other’s home, feeling comfy and warm

Isn’t that a good idea?

Be a fast learner at knowing yourself

Cz maybe, just maybe, you miss me the way I do 

But never wanna say a word or two…

FFF

September, 8th 2024