hard to love.

it was always easy and nothing to figure out about

when I knew you're in love with me

nothing new for it,

just this distance and time that must've fucked us up

while I, keep on believing that you're the one for me

no matter how illogical things are

every time I walk away, you'd pull me back

every time you walk away, I'd pull you back

seems like we're living in a spiral, cycle, 

where time has no right to stop but always ticking

but these days, when I feel so overly in love with you,

when I feel all this feelings won't let me breathe but to think about you,

you're the one that got the pride, 

you turn the whole things to take me off of you from my mind

why you're so hard to love?

you're hard to love

to me, I'd do anything to keep you close

even though it's all illogical and irrational

guess that I'm not so blind for loving you

I know all my feelings are true

while you watch my back, wanting me to give up on us

it's just I don't understand you, I can't stand your mood

you're afraid with the fire that you've started 

and you'll say to me, that I'm better off without you

my blood runs cold, 

my feet feels numb,

my head spins around,

you got me cornered and tied up

why you're such a mystery to me?

why you're so hard to love?

you are hard to love.

I won't take the blame, 

I just wanna take some time to have you back here, on my side

I won't lie to you,

I just wanna let you open your eyes to see the side I'm fighting with

your demons are taking control of you,

your evils are consuming you,

but I'm gonna stay here, live or die, to hold you back

and make you realize that

I love you forever, not maybe

FFF

January, 27th 2023