it's all fading now

Sometimes I do wonder, 
Why the good things always happen when we don't realize it? 
Or I'm just so good at feeling my own feelings
And that made you scared, so you ran away and left
So today I found our old nice conversations but I guess those will be deleted soon

I must admit that it was so good, and that makes me kinda miss you
I hate this feelings
Because I know, I don't know what to do about it 
Maybe I'm a coward, maybe I'm just a fool
To pretend that I've gotten over it,
But you know, the heart wants what it wants

Because I know, in the end of the day
We'll be ourself, nothing more
We'll be forced to love ourself, no one else
But the only thing that hurts me the most is when
You said to never leave me,
But you did.

You. Did.

I know, maybe this wasn't what we wanted
Came for me, then leave me
Made me believe, then broke me
Or was it all my fault after all, for demanding you so much
For some time you changed, but afraid of that change
We left so many doubts within ourself while trying to understand what was it all about

Now it's been a year, I still save my old notes
Those days were something, I mean it
I can't just leave and forget
You're somehow someone I used to know so well
What a shame that we ended this way
No more chances, even I've opened up my door
I could see it's all fading now,
Your name, our dreams, and maybe your shadow
Guess they're all gone now

Wish you'd turn around and find me, but you wont, 

and I know. 

FFF

Jan, 26th 2023