Dear Someone,
This's me, a little young girl wearing a dress and bring some flowers over the street. This's me, a little wild girl who always smile for no reason no matter I'm happy or sad. This's me, a little hazard girl who always act like a bitch beyond this all. And This's me, a little different girl who always act like I'm good enough to fall into 'love' world. And I'm here, just want to write something that I think It's important for me to be written. I thought I'd tell you this by face to face but then I realize that I'll never be brave enough to stand and say this directly to you.
At first I knew you, I was there sitting right crossing you. I looked at you and I said, "This could be something." I didn't know what's the meaning of it. I was just looking over you from head to toe and go back to see my paper sheet. I looked down at my paper but I couldn't hold my focus until you're just go away, or... talking to your friends. I like it that way, until now.
And I still remember about the time I asked for your personal things which was great. I asked you a lot about it like I'm crazy for it. I asked you whole things like your family, your brothers and sisters, your parents, and of course your friends. We always shared each other. Not only us, but also to our friends too. I feel like I'm so blessed and grateful to have a friend like you. Funny, hilarious, and sometimes.. you're annoying. That's why I like you, you're such an annoying kid.
We both love to laugh, which means.. It's great for us to started a thing we call.. maybe.. uhm, love? I never knew stuffs and things about love but I feel so real with you. Every time that we talked, we chatted, we laughed, we did some great things.. I always wonder, 'am I really fall for you?' or 'Maybe I'm just in obsession with you?' nobody knows, including me. But time won't stop, always flow that way. I believe that time will give me such the best answer for this. I don't feel really comfortable if every time I see you with her, or her, or anything, deep inside, I'm just gonna scream out loud so that everybody knows that maybe.. I like you. Or I love you.
I know if you're there and you don't actually know what's going on with me if every time you talk about the other girls.. Maybe all that you think is just 'She's fine' but actually I'm not. I'm a lovestruck, easy to fall but also easy to break too. For some times, you always make me feel like I'm finally home with you but in another time.. you could make me down to the ground. Crawling so hard but nobody seems to understand about what I actually feel. I feel so sad about it and back to confuse again. Back to sit on the floor, wishing and hoping that everything is just gonna be okay.
Well maybe you never realize about how many times I always call your name. You never know about how was I feel when I'm standing in front of you. You never feel how weak my knees are when you call her name. You seem like you never realize about things thing we called 'love' already happened inside my chest. All that I want is just.. when will you realize that I'm not like the rest?
Well, this's me, a little wonderstruck girl who always trying to catch those sparks when you smile. This's me, a little unadorned girl who always trying to make you realize that I'm not like the rest. This's me, a little town girl who live in a small town and thinking of you everyday, in every time, during the most random times...
- sincerely, me
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