The first time I landed my feet on my high school, I felt like.. I was amazed by the high school things like hanging out with friends and finding a puppy love here. It’s like I’ve been reached for a shining star. So cinematic and dramatic without a perfect ending. I just realize that my life is not like the movie. I don’t go play or hanging out with my girls to everymalls on my place. And I don’t wear three inches of make up (well, usually for students in another school, they wear short skirts and make up). I’m just me. I don’t wanna change too much so people wouldn’r recognize me. I’m just stay true of my self.
Being my own self isn’s as easy as I said it. It’s hard for being your self when you know that people arroud you got a lot of talent or riches so that you wanna go for follow their styles. When I was on junior high school, I’ve ever told my friends once “Hei. On this holiday, I’m gonna go to US.” And then suddenly people just knew about it. I was confused, I was lying to my friends. Yes, I lied. But I have some positive thought about it. I just wanna see, how much people that assuming me as their ‘best’friend or just a ‘fake’friends. So here I got. I didn’t get anything. All of the bullshit I’ve told just bring me a disaster. I couldn’t handle it. So I asked my friend, Anna to edit a few of my pictures. And I got the result. I showed those pictures to my friends to made them believe that I didn’t lie. But they could see the truth. They called me I’m a liar and try to leave me alone. I felt so sad and I just wanna burn those crap pictures and go die!
But It was not my fault at all. I was envy with my friends who got more money, and go to everymalls in everyweeks. I wanted to be like them, but I couldn’t. And I realized that I’m valuable and I’m not a liar. So I stand up and try to burn those freaking memories. I opened my eyes, there’re so much teenagers in this town which isn’t lucky as me. I’m on their position. I changed to be someone useful and try to got a lot of achievment.
I like for.. imagining my self, walking on a red carpet and act like I’m an hollywood actrees. I act like I’m the queen. I act like I’m doing photoshoot or being just like Megan Fox for showing a cute couples of my bra. I like it all. I like watching movies and I act like I’m in interview with Ellen or something.. I like doing it all because I wanna be an actrees, If I could. But I’m not as lucky as them. I don’t have such skinny body or.. my leg isn’t tight. But I believe that I got another talent. I belive in the wise of my God, Allah SWT.
I’m in different wolrd now. I’m a teenager. I’m on the golden age for being a human. I could loving someone just for a while, and then break it suddenly. I could be a dilligent chick to study hard. I could doing everything I want. I could be an actrees if I really want. I never heard people for talking bullshit about me. I’m just living my age and try to make it different.
Cheers Up Everybody!
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